Life in the Grey Concrete words..

9 months you held me and let me breath in to the world. 19 years of nurturing and lessons of life and i flew away for 4 years never to come back. Now you are coming back to me coz there is nothing that can separate us.. I know you are not perfect but you have showed me a lot in life. I am here because of you. Tommorow you will be going away and I am going to miss you a lot. All your life you have made sacrifices to me and I will never be able to give you the sacrifices that you made for me. With all my heart I do this for you; to become a better person in life and take care of you at all times. You have being the strength that pushed me forward and the supporting hand that always never failed. My life is actually not mine its yours because the blood that runs inside me  is half yours. Everytime I fell in life you were there and even now after 23 years you are still there taking care of me. I love u a lot my mother.. you have always been the diamond in my life. WIth you i m everything. You are the best a son can ever get.. I love you!

This is a Question that most of us think about in our day to day daily life. We think that if there was god, how is it that bad things happen to the world, why should the innocent die etc etc.. I m not going to look at the big picture here.. I m looking at myself.. I went through a lot this year and 2007 has being a good and bad year for me. 6 months of wonderful Life and 6 months of turbulent life..

Started with a break up.. feeling down thinking that the world is gonna end.. That if there was a god that this wouldnt happen. Feeling sad and cursing.. during that time i met 2 people that will last forever in my life. Noi ; a very close friend and Lela the only very best friend i ever had in my life. They taught me that ; “hey life is not all about having relationships and trying to get married and all that crap.. its only a part of your life. You just have to live it first, enjoy it,, MOST importantly BE yourself what ever happens. How does it tally with my question today: “Is there GOD?”

It is said that the divine being works in ways that for our human mind its hard to comprehend. Blessings come in disguise! I m feel I m alive. Things happen just fine. When you are financially down and when you think there is no way to turn miraculously I find a lump some in my account.. SOmething i didnt even think that can happen..

Mistakes are corrected when time passes. The job i got which was purely under peer pressure which if I never took at that time wouldnt find the 2 best people in the world. There is a purpose in Everything. We are meant to learn from what we experience. Things always happen for a reason. EVERYTHING in this world has a reason. even the simplest things in life has a reason.. We might not be able to find the reason then and there.. because its just it might be a root for a new tree,, a new life..

incident 1

Once I was in bishan… walking down the steps the next thing i know was i m doing a belly flop and surf boarding down the steps to the platform. I spied from my little eye my shoes flying from the sides. LOLZ. I got up from the embarrassing situation and quietly looked at the fate of my shoes.. THEY were in 2 different platforms.. I walked bare with socks to each platform and put them on.. Looking down walked all the way to one bloody corner and hid myself…

Incident 2

I was In the MRT on my way home. was standing and sleeping… From far far away i hear a whistle but i didnt care about it.. the next thing i knew was i was woken up by the MRT personnel.. From my stoning self i looked around. The train has stopped in YEW TEE and the lights were switched off. All the people were standing behind the yellow line and looking at me.. I WAS THE LAST PErsoN Left in the train.

Incident 3

Z . The biggest menthol hater in the world.. Let us see how much he really hates it.. This guy goes to buy condoms… sees something called tingling sensation.. haha.. bought it in a very quiet way then comes back home.. Then he reads the instructions and sees the tingling senstation is caused by MENTHOL.. Z… runs back to the shop wants to change it.. asks the counter whether can change.. OF COURSE he can change.. BUT must wait for supervisor.. he waits… LOOKS behind him..Behind him is a queue… LOLZ  then the supervisor comes and changes it for him… HE is happy

OH OH am i sick again. ya i m sick of working for awhile. so i went to the clinic. For medicine. Well i went there the medicine really made me better.

For starters we had something call Lime juice with a pinch of alcohol. when the operation started we got Morphine X.. Small blue colour shooters. The medicine started getting an effect in me. woo. Then came the final cut for the operation which ended with A Graveyard.

By that time i think i was in paradise a bit coz i was enjoying like crazy.

I have experienced sadness, sorrows, joy, love all in one moment today. joy and happiness never last long. Now lingering in the void of sadness and sorrows.

News is a killer in life. even good or bad. i just recieved bad news. makes me sad. But its reallity. life never give you a full hand. nor all your cards make you win all the time. In this time i think of what i have acheived and will be achieveing in the near future.

Even with sadness i have pulled through many situations. with so many problems start falling out. its the universal law. To gain something you have to loose something of equal value. At this point i guess i got 2 options. one is to give up another is to hold on.. pull through and be successful.

I never give up.. i never have. and i never will. I promise my self today that i will never be hurt again. Never.. i ll make sure i live to prove this. to be successful. have friends that u treasure around you. have money not to think. I will be the person that you lost not vice versa. never will it happen again

life is like a war. People think i m on the loosing side. We will see. when you start winning. After all this time i come to realize one thing in life. ITS you who decide what you are going to do. Its you who make choices in life. not anyone else.

My HOD IT is one hell of a fellow. I think he saw me growing fat today he asked me to do house keeping for the Labs. Which ended up with lots of sweat.. I made about 16 trips up and down from level 3 to the ground flow carrying boxes of various weights and sizes. When it ended woo I felt good.

You see my Job comes with lotsa different kind of things so its never boring. lolz damn i should have worn a t shirt today.

yeahh.. its being sometimes since i updated my blog.. hahaha yeahh.. being busy with work plus enjoying myself immensly.. lolz.. It was the school holidays last week and was not so busy.

the last four days of the week was the most happening of them all. On top of some personal stuff i was covered with blessed friends. We had a nice time. Clubbed like crazy. Got a bit tipsy. Spent some money.. met 2 old buddies.

Got head banged. Thats a story to narratel. When when my friend get a bit High he goes in to this craze of BAnging his Head in to other people. Forehead to be exact. Unfortunately i was the his first victim that day on Friday. And guess what I still HAVE a damn Bump there..

Mixing Drinks is not a Good Idea. believe me U mix next morning u ll find urself inside Singapore River or in some smelly drain. Aircon is another bad thing.. lolz..
I miss you people… ahhh.. u know who i mean..

Hey its gona b teacher’s day. I thank you for the student who gave me a lovely peice of Cake today. It felt really nice.. Thanks :). I love teaching you guyzz…

Its being quite a nice week. work was ok. being in lab 3 is somewhat nice. couldnt meet up with the gang for sometime. miss that part immensely.

For one more month i m all alone in my house. haha big house no one. this is where I think i should be attached.. could spent some "quality" time with your loved one. lolz if u know what i mean.

clubbing was fun last week. hahaha we had fun man.. me alfian anson and the gurl. The aircon made me feel like shit after getting home. hahah. crap. should never do.

ahh some rules are really stupid. Its like just for money making.. thats the problem with this country. went to do my driving test and you know the TP tell me. " license should be obtained 6 months prior to coming to singapore" WTF..  now i have to do the license the stupid singapore way.. CRAP.. stupid stupid rule.. damn for what sial.. waste of money and waste of time.. at least can drive in malaysia now. crazy

I was fussing about the COE price a lot. It was 17.400. well god really gives you signs in very surprising way. The COE now is 8000.. hahahah!!! so you guyz can look out for a car from me soon babess.. hahaha this Dilhan Bowatte is Buying a car..

your insides are regreting now rite.. hahaha.. still covering up saying having the best time of your life..

And I m buying MANUAL. my choice.. hahahaha… love it.. 

hahaha u guyzz. u guyz will be the first to ride it.. sha, L, N and D. hehehe.. await.. its good to have an another family and friends.. thank you for being there for me!!